A Preface:
I am an atheist. More specifically I am an atheist of the negative variety. This means that I have heretofore found all reasons FOR belief in God unsatisfactory, and therefore LACK belief. This is not to say that I affirm a belief in God's non-existence, however. I in-fact hold out the possibility for God to exist, and given sufficient reasons I would believe in this.
It is precisely this persistant possibility in the back of mind, however unlikely it is, that has fueled my post-Christian life with imaginary conversations with the God I once loved and, confessionally, still yearn for.
The following conversations constitute my heartfelt conversations and experiences with a sometimes responsive, usually silent, God inside my head.
Christians often describe people as having an inate need, a yearning, for God. For me, this is somewhat true. I will perhaps always have a "God shaped hole" inside of me. It is my belief that the need was ironically created by the same people who claimed I had this need; a belief that they, with my help, dug a hole for God to fill. And now, the hole remains. I think this is why my coversations continue, o this day.
Conversation 1
Review of Paul Copan's Book "Is God a Moral Monster"
